July 17th, its the third week into July. another week and its august.

i've been jobless for nearly 2 months, considering that i was officially "kicked" out of school on 30th June (as written on cert). actual jobless period starts way before that.

oh gosh. what have i been doing. this is bad. am i that not attractive? am i that bad? why are there totally no news from any companies at all. ANY!!

right now i just hope i get a job soon. i can't take it anymore. my mom and dad kept bugging me to go get a job. apply for whatever. banking, sph, insurance etc. whatever their friends mentioned to them, its worth me trying. yeah well. they meant good. i know. i appreciate it. but i've really tried le. ok. i may not have tried my best. but i tried. sigh.

from today onwards. i'm just gonna try for watever i can apply for. widen my choices. no more dreams, no more must haves. no more european mnc dream. no more travelling dream. go get some experience first. regardless of watever!!!!!!!!!
sigh. argh.....

yest practice was fun. we had potluck dinner at bernice's house. i'm officially acting in the play le. haha. well this time round not as a mother anymore le. so stay tuned!! practice is moving on. right now due to practices i am only free on monday, friday and saturday nights. day time i seriously hope i can get them occupied with work soon. sigh. i don't mind the tiredness, the stress. its the fulfillment, the occupancy that makes one feels alive.

i have to go take corporate photo real soon. maybe now, later on before tuition.